I don’t necessarily believe in Twin Flames meaning you need someone to complete you or feel whole. Although everyone has different reasons and lessons for their life, but I know my biggest lesson is finding self love and relying on self. The whole bottom line for me has been Self-Love, but I do have a soul mate that contained all the aspects as a twin flame category. One of my biggest teachers in this lifetime, and all lessons were taught through me and by me with her taking the role of being a spotlight and a mirror for the areas of my life that I need to work on. All of which lay within my own thinking and actions.
No one on earth can honestly say they know the REAL definitive answers to any of these things that make our existence and Spirit. So all are merely speculations and theories given an individuals experience. So that is what this is here, disclaimer: I don’t know anything except what my perception is. Based on my experiences. I could have the same experience as Johnny Apple Seed. But his understanding and perception of it can be totally different and contradicting. Does that make it wrong? No, I believe reality and truth is solely based off the eyes of the beholder. So you don’t have to agree with anything that I say, or that you read elsewhere. Take what resonates and leave the rest. Build your reality on what suits you, and what feels right to you. Build it on your dreams and love.
My experience with a soul mate that many would call Twin Flame experience. Yet we both knew that the end lesson was you must love yourself first and foremost in life AND that YOU ARE WHOLE no matter what. No, you don’t need another human to complete you. No, you don’t need energetic healings, DNA upgrades, or karmic releases to become whole. At the base of everything, underneath all that you will perceive and experience in this lifetime – you are whole.
So look at it this way, you may not feel whole and you have gone through a lot of hardships and traumas – well that’s just stuff layered on top of your wholeness. Maybe preventing you from seeing and accepting your true self and wholeness. These hardships and struggles are not to be looked at with distain or anger. That only adds to the layering. But rather approach with an open and optimistic faith that on the other side of it is happiness and strength. Trust that your divine essence and whoever you call creator, would NOT set you up for failure or put you in danger.
All dangers, all ideas of darkness and evil are a responsibility held by the person who believes in those and gives them energy. For the only thing that is of darkness, is for the reason of balance. Without dark, there would be no light. Without pain, struggles, and discomfort – we would not truly appreciate Love. So everything has a purpose. You and your consciousness hold the key to allowing yourself to be the victim, or to standing firmly in your trust and faith in your connection to Source of all things.
The soul mate which I am getting around to speaking about, was one that we met by circumstance and just immediately were magnetized. She was one of the first people I could speak to openly about all my experiences. Not only that, but she was interested and not suggesting psychiatric help. She lived in MN, I lived in CA. We had one date in MN while I was in town, and spent the whole night talking. Long story short, we talked everyday and she flew to CA a month later.
We both didn’t understand why we were making this leap with a complete stranger but it was almost just written and we were just following along. The first trip she came, I connected to Heart and then she was activated. Like a flip of a switch, she became a healer and worked on me with my spirit guides. It was so shocking to see this switch of normal human mode, to all of a sudden a healer and able to see spirit. But I was so excited and in love with the idea that I had another human in this experience. That I wouldn’t have to be dealing and trying to understand all this alone. That I had someone who can confirm and reassure what I’m seeing, feeling, and hearing is not just in my mind only.
The biggest gift of having someone who’s in the experience with you – To know and realize that NO its not just in your MIND. Your mind is not just making this up, because two sets of eyes and two brains are seeing and interacting with the same thing. A blessing of indescribable proportions.
The next visit, she turned into all my fears. She was a witch (which I knew nothing about wicca or anything at the time, I love witches now – they’re all awesome as far as Ive met – but this was a preconceived notion). She became possessed. I thought she was the devil. Everytime I’d look at her, her pupils and eyes would be different. The devil one had diamonds within the pupils which was something out of a movie. (Out of a movie – which is my life now).
Slowly I faced those fears one by one. Everytime I overcame one, or finally came to an understanding that I wasn’t in danger – it would result in Love and inner strength / confidence in myself. I saw a hooded man that weekend, Just standing at the foot of my bed. Scared the living hell out of me. So I thought the devil himself was after me. Everytime I saw something dark and tall, like a hanging jacket on a coat rack, I would jump and my heart would skip a beat. Until finally one night, a couple months down the road. I came to the understanding that no “darkness” no “evil” has powers over you unless you participate in giving them up.
After the meditation where this all came in alignment for me I opened my eyes and there he stood. The hooded man just staring right at me. I felt zero fear. If anything I felt more inquisitive on what he wanted. I stood up and walked towards him. With my Love emotion flowing by activating my Thymus Gland. (Look it up if you don’t know about it – Helps take control of your love emotion). I walked right up in front of the glass door where he stood, and just looked at him with the thought in mind “What is it you want? You can’t hurt me.” And he just slowly nods his head, then opens his robe. Right where his heart would be was a glowing beautifully and vibrant orange fire. He literally BLASTED me with Love. THEE most Love I felt this whole life. More than the angels ever downloaded to me at the beginning. More than anything I can describe. It almost felt like I was floating. Then he was gone. I stumbled back and sat on the ground just loving the idea of what I just learned.
Love is all you need. Harness and learn how to activate your thymus gland – just a tip. Feel that love emotion. And no darkness can live – where there is light there can’t be dark. But the dark around the light enables the light to be. So don’t give power to your fear. Your fear will initiate and give the power to your illusion of the darkness being threatening.
So my soul mate here played out the perpetrator in all the different ideas of where I can be in danger, taken advantage of, used, or that something can affect who I am at the essence of my being. She was also learning lessons out of the experiences, all while perceiving and ultimately living a different reality of those experiences. I believe we both were there, but were looking and interacting with the mirrors reflection of what we needed to learn.
And now overcoming all this with her. The main understanding I needed to come to learn is – That I am Whole, No matter what. No matter any mistake, any pains or ideas of lacking, no matter perception – the main fact is that I am Whole. I am at my deepest essence , a being of God, or of Source. All things are of Source, all things are God. God is not above looking down. God is within and without looking through. If you acknowledge that underneath your idea of your identity, that you are of God. Then you must understand that God is untouchable and unharmable. That not one thing came upon God and all he touches. The things and perils that come upon us are not attacks, but of our own making and just mean they need understanding. If God is everything, then all “darkness” is actually God also. This is what I believe. Call it God. Call it Source. Call it the Universe. Regardless – it obviously all comes from one place. I call that place God, because it’s what resonates to my soul. I believe in a creator, a creative intelligence that is behind my existence and all the reality that I live. I choose to believe that I am protected and guided carefully and intimately. Uniquely walked down a path that is not repeated by another Soul or person.
I trust that if you are battling with these demons, or your Soul Mate/Twin Flame has set you down the path of facing your fears, then you know the feeling of pain and life threatening fears. No place to turn, no one to call. All friends or family think your crazy already and what are you gonna do? Call the cops? Ha, it’s just you and all forces of evil you perceive. I must admit that’s a pretty genius tactic by some Intelligent Creator, to have you turn back around to faith. I turned around in complete fear, like “I don’t know what the hell is going on here man, I don’t know if anyone exists up there, but if so I could use some help protection.”
What started with protection, turned to trust and faith. And soon if you fill yourself up with enough God and Faith. Then there’s no room for evil. If you fill yourself up with enough light, then there’s no room for darkness. It’s a beautifully constructed lesson – Brings you back to faith and also you overcome your fears. Two birds one stone.
We technically are a part of all things that Are. So you could say you have 100 souls. But you are at your essence, a whole and individual vantage point of God. You do not need someone to complete you, you need yourself to complete you. Soulmates are amazing teachers and these twin flames experiences are very ying and yang. I think the union of the souls are real because the ying and yang allows for the energies to balance. But not necessarily meaning you are needed to exist, not necessarily anymore of Oneness than with others.
That’s just my perspective given my experiences and lessons learned with a soul mate of that nature. It’s a huge opportunity for growth in self-love and understanding. I am going to be a better partner to someone because of my experience with her. I am going to be a better friend and son because of the growth I gained in the experiences. She helped my unlock all the insecurities and negative perspectives, thoughts, beliefs I had around another human being. Specifically around my female relationships. She will forever hold a special place in my heart and she will be in my life until the last day. At the very least as a trusted friend that feels like family.
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