2020: The Angel called, Mother Teresa (1905-1997)
Mother Teresa, whom hangs as a most important model for the catholic church at these times. During one of my low points, I was close to giving up again and throwing my hands up & head down out of exhaustion to the lord.
I hear these words:
"Jim....it's okay. Let go. You have to let go. Everything is going to be alright."
With a warm energy and motherly caress which my soul needed so badly. Coming through with one of the most strong knowings I've experienced in my life. She hadn't been someone I really thought about much, or ever even considered to be close by for my healing. Yet, as my fears and cries went silent, her words took the spot in my mind - Accompanied by a concrete knowing of who exactly was sharing their support.
It was the most soul reckoning, coming-to; I can imagine being possible here in the physical. After finally surrendering and letting go as the essence drifts back into the darkness, that's when I noticed what was happening at this juncture. Without any second thought or panic, as I was done fighting and running. I was tired. That's when it hit me. This warm golden light which was all of sudden all around my essence, through me, in me; it was me and all that was in the space being perceived around me. With the most beautiful sense of safety, unconditional love, and just knowing I was In the hands of our Creator.
After working with a veteran this week. I had a more in-depth understanding and feeling on what those men and women experience. In regards to the intensity of being in the dance of life and death, for however long they were deployed. And then the empty, drained out, and confused state of being that they return to our society here in the U.S.
It opened my heart to these men and women that had sacrificed their time and put their life on the line, in the honor of protecting you and I. This particular veteran shared how his friends from deployment had been committing suicide. With the majority of everyone he was close to either struggling with PTSD, substance abuse, or actually making the difficult decision to end the suffering and their life.
Suicide is a painful spot on human nature at this day and age. If you have lost someone to their own hand, you will understand the heartbreak that is swallowed upon hearing of this news.
To think of someone you cared about and even loved to be at the pushing brink point of hopelessness to go on another minute. That all of life's wide possibilities and the friends/family which remained behind on Earth, were not even enough to find reason enough to go on another day.
It's a horrible realization to think of your friend or loved-one in this last minute of their life. Thinking the last thoughts of weighing the options between the sunlight which sprinkles in their closed off room from the beautiful wonders of mother nature - and to find not a strong enough point in living, for them to at least hold off for while.
That is some serious suffering. If you've felt that heaviness - where you sat alone and debated the reasons of going on another day; then I hope you also are experiencing the realization of how strong you are and the warrior which had emerged from your heart in order for you to be standing here today. That being the case; then I can assume you know the understanding and logic that comes with those energies. As no one should have to absorb without an end in sight.
I will never judge anyone who decides to take the action of ending their suffering. Because the rest of us, only know the suffering levels which we've experienced. And that was painful enough. Thinking of a heart break, death in the family, or injury / illness which you experienced.
Yet you do not know the levels of which these energies can take on while consuming your whole outlook and ability to think or breathe.
When I turned to God. To the Mother. And then Jesus Christ. That is where I finally found my reprieve. I had been dealing with not only my energies from the past and childhood traumas, but also the previous months of healing work I had done with the senior population. I was going on in life with relying upon my trust. Yet, no opening or closing ritual, as well as only relying upon myself for the powers which I should have been calling upon the Creator for.
Ilived and learned - the clients were all benefitting still. Even quite immensely in most of the cases. It was a great time period of progress for the people I had been working with - but I had been absorbing and re-absorbing the energetic remnants which I was in the process of being taught how to recycle them properly.
It wasn't during this time period that I had come to accept death with an open heart. Rather, I would send my grievances to the silence of the night sky with my inquisitions demanding the ending of this suffering, or the few words to respond to me the best plan of action for my reprieve. Luckily the creative designer to my life had fully thought out the distance to stretch me thin and allow me to kick and fight, before finally bringing me to a peaceful balance or neutrality that would almost feel like euphoria immediately following those lows.
Mother Teresa is there for you if you desire to call out or speak in the silence of your thoughts to her. Just think of her. Know you are directing the message to her. She will be listening and without hesitation or care to the Worldly Organized Spiritual Practices which you align to. She is quite aware of the true nature of our Oneness that eludes us currently on the physical. Although we are moving right along toward the Golden Age which had been prophesied. She shared this: "There is no waiting for a second coming or fears to harbor of Nuclear Holocausts or Armageddon." "Jesus Christ is already here, as it has always been. And all the messengers /teachers that came with profound message of our Oneness in Source, and the Oneness of all on Earth."
I truly enjoy that woman. A true angel, and messenger which walked right along with us and put a mother's touch unto the masculine-spoken Word of the Bible. Which is a topic for another piece of work - but it's all balance. And balancing is what we are experiencing. So trust in knowing we are right where we are supposed to. Lean on the Creator or whatever it is that you choose to see your faith into...just practice the trusting and faith in your everyday life - the sound heart that trusts in the hand of the Most High, that guides their life to the exact spot it is supposed to be. Trust and Pray. Prayer does not have to be the fashion in which many of us raised Catholic had been taught; 3 Our Fathers, 5 Hail Mary's, Etc. Rather just talk to the open silence as you sink your being into your center.
Looking up. Looking down. Looking left or right... No longer will suffice. As the home of the Creative Force/Intelligence which we call God resides quietly within all of our hearts. And in the air that spreads the space between us, as we exchange words in conversation to one another. The very same essence which stretches to the cosmos and down into the roots of the trees we have here on Earth. All is from One. That One is Source. You may call him God now. Whatever you choose to call this Intelligence...Just call.
Believe and find a way to become more excited for the final chapter of life and that moment when you will slip away into weightlessness. As the tremendous weight will be lifted from you in a matter of seconds - and the realization of how heavy that thing was that you (we) have been carrying each day, into the next. It is a relief and peace that only one word is relatable. That being "Bliss".
Now go practice your Positivity. Only Ask for the areas of your own healing which needs attention. Point inward. That's the way we will continue to move forward - the world changes by leaps and bounds as each next person releases the energies of karmic pasts and steps into their true expression.
Igniting those around them. Shine on friends.
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