Where the gravel meets the pavement is an overly relieving feeling...To know that you're trek is done, the hardship or trial of those last paths or streets are finally finished. Having sought the help of many others, you may have the inclination to reach out to them and let them know the good news. But I assure you, it is not a smart idea to do such a thing. They hadn't just traveled in the drivers seat down that very steep road and you will be more often than not, disappointed and/or let down.
No fault of theirs, and not to pass the blame off on their inability for compassion or care. Simply they are not spending the day thinking about if you will make it through this or not. They hadn't been asking themselves only if you were over there crying and suffering in the depths of your own pit of despair. No.. They were studying for their next exam, or thinking about how their boss is a dick, and pretty much everything except your whereabouts and experiences - good or bad. That's just the truth.
So let go of the preconceived notion there will be a reunion party or some surprise wedding that you are blessed with the things you had wanted so badly and all your friends and loved ones back by your side - like a chapter that was lived by you, slipping into the nightmare and slipping out of it - only to return to a melancholy crowd to receive you.
Do you understand that you are not the center of the universe and never have been.
But you are the center to your own universe and the carrier of your own planet. Your world.
And as you have your own world, the entire human race has their own individual worlds and this is the singular nature of the experience with a colliding of words continuously occurring each time you meet a new person or fall in love again. The intertwining of worlds. But at the core of each world is the same storyline and past, a narrative which has led up to the present moment spread throughout each and every world. No matter the world's stagnated belief systems, lack of care or pollution, or the imbalanced ideas that surround duality's polar thoughts.
This is were you find that you are in control of your own world. The human body, your body. It is your world, and just like the Earth it had an ecosystem that is responsive to what is put into it and taken out of it. The polluting can cloud the skies just like smoking can cloud the lungs with cancer. Thus, we have a sole responsibility. The responsibility of caring for our vessel. It is our duty for proper and balanced stewardship - and it's only us who pays for the neglect of proper caring for and it's only our own happiness and comfort that dwindles in the shadow of self-inflicted damage that can be administered to the body. By thought, by substance, by physicality....you name it - drugs or stressors of negative thinking; it is all the components of inflicted damage on the vessel. And we shall by here take on the servitude to self, to vessel, for we are granted this one pass and opportunity to shine - who wants to waste it in the shadows seething of self-hatred and mutilation of the slow kind. Not me.
The kingdom of god is the Human Body, the Vessel. Heaven on Earth is the balanced and joyful peace that is lived by the individual who has taken care of their mind, and their body. This is the true Kingdom for which your domain shall reign, and not to be infiltrated by an outside force, ever in your life, for it is impossible and the law is written - your soul is spoken for. No danger can befall except by thy own hand and mouth. Free will allows this self-inflicted trauma and damages to be perceived but the truth of the matter is, Law states that no one person can infiltrate or inflict any influence of matters or energy onto the next person - therefor preventing the possible evil doer coming into your life and causing you got suffer or cursing you - no they cannot do this, but you can certainly invite them in for dinner and a conversation or two that really ruffles your feathers. Heck, you can have them in your bed to stay the night and fall in love with them which can bring about all sorts of emotional ups and downs, but they still cannot inflict or influence your own world, life, or body.
You may be under the assumptions that you are of some unique chosen or elite group of individuals to be involved in the experiencing of your current experiences - the awakening type, and you are right - just know this, that you are always at the point in awareness to where you are consciously and in so, seeing the world as such indeed you will. Your worldly reflection is going to be exact to the level of vibration and awareness you are holding present. And it is not unlikely that your conscious vibration will going down and backwards at time -- much like the weather systems that make their way across the globe, becoming high pressure to low pressure, hot to cold, and rainy to dry - this is your own cycle of evolution as progress is made.
So enjoy the times and make sure to utilize the points at which you identify being back down at a lower vibration to be an indicator and/or gauge to see the changes you've made, It is a great way to take notice to your evolutionary steps made and growth, and without it you wouldn't be able to compare or notice - so gratitude in even the 'down-falls' .
Seeding a Reality: Talks of Life and Meaning
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