Realizing for the better part of my life I’ve been reaching to External Things to make me feel loved, to feel happy, to feel confidence. Or relying on other people to calm my fears or insecurities and basing my own self image and truth upon others’ words.
This process has made me realize that is THE worst way to live. It’s a dead end when looking for true happiness. For your own self love. Your cup needs to be filled from within. I finally understand everything I ever needed. Everything I wanted and that feeling that I was missing something, but not quite being able to put my finger on what it is I’m actually missing.
Well this is what it was. The constant reaching and attaching myself to things outside of my own Spirit, Soul, Heart, or Divine Source within - is what has led to my unsatisfiable questions of How to Find True Happiness…How to Find Me!?
Who am I? Why am I here? Why do I always feel like there is more? Why do I feel I need to figure something out? What are we doing here? - These questions may not fully be answered during this Physical Experience we call Life here, but when you place your Faith and Trust in God, or the Divine Order of the Universe, or Love that Connects all things. Then you will begin to walk on a path that will lead you to finding these answers from within.
There is no one-way street on doing this. My experience of being Abruptly woken up September 1st and being worked on and with every night for 1 - 2 months is most likely not something you will experience. I am being told that all roads will lead to the Ultimate Answer that drive us to be searching, that drive us to search and question everything. And the Answer is, Every answer is within us. God is within us.
This is not a to be looked at as a religious description. I use the word God only because that’s what my Heart leads me to say and it feels right to me. If you say “Universe” or “The Divine” or “Grandfather Time” or “The Divine Feminine”, it literally doesn’t matter the Sounds or Words you choose to use - it’s about the intent and meaning behind it in your heart. Use Love.
Love is what we call an emotion. But it is so much more than that. It is a connection. It is a communication from something. It has power to it. When you feel love, it has healing power. It has confidence, the ability to fight fear, the ability to overcome and pain or discomfort you may be feeling emotionally. Think of the Love feeling as God’s or Your Divine Power’s Fingerprint in you. Christians call it the Holy Spirit. And every single human has it.
You just need to understand that. Feeling love, is that direct activation of the Holy Spirit. And when you quiet your mind enough, and allow your Heart to be Loud - you are able to allow the Spirit to do the beautiful.
Something I was doing in the beginning was picturing my body in White Light as I meditated. And it would help me feel that Love within. I also think it helps to Activate whatever DNA you have that is meant to be activated during this Life.
We live in a “reality” where we are conditioned that if we reach externally for happiness we can attain it. But the Truth is, that just brings you further and further from your Happiness & Answers. You can stack up all your money, all your gold, all your titles next to your name, the newest car, and the most beautiful friends - but not a single one of these things can give you True Happiness within. If anything it can distract you for sometime. But nothing can answer the eternal question in your soul you feel - other than you turning within.
Fill the cup from within.
For me, I just keep my prayers and meditation very strong. Morning, multiple times throughout the day, and night before bed. I try to stay ever connected to God or the Divine. And give all reliance and guidance over. I have bought a Bible, started going to Church, and just letting that Pour in and incubate me. Trust me, I had a stigmatic feeling towards Church and Religion, but now it’s not even about Religion anymore. Just about me connecting, about me being around Love and Positivity, about me understanding that everything is within me. And the reading of the Bible has been 100% different than I ever could have imagined. I read it not literal but I understand the hidden meanings behind these stories. The stories used to keep me away because I thought it was dogmatic, punishing, and unrealistic. But now I read it through new eyes and see all the hidden messages and meanings. And better yet the church I found has pastors that read and teach it in this same manner.
I’m not saying go buy Bible and join Church. Find whatever helps you to Fill your Cup from Within. It is all an extremely personal journey and where you find your Answer, will be different than where your best friend may find their answers.
Just have Faith in the Divine. Understand you have everything you need within you. Love is more than an emotion and you should try to feel it without basing it on external activators, rather turn within for it or even ask for it within.
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