WHO YOU ARE is your thoughts and beliefs which are the whole and totality of this structure.

When the time comes of reckoning, and that structure is beginning to burn. Not reckoning, as the term related to punishing or aggression towards your safety. It is the reckoning which you have been waiting for. Without you identifying this is what you were waiting for. Without identifying that feeling stirring consistently inside you was of a patient waiting deeply rooted. Rooted underneath the foundation of this structure you’ve built.

This Is a creative piece of work I did to tell the tale of what it felt like to walk the spiritual path through life during my awakening - as I tamed my beast. 

Scientific Study - DNA and Emotions Linked to Connectivity Despite 
Scientist working for the U.S. Army – 1993 Scientific Journal Advances 
The study was to theorize about the separation of DNA from the human body and how it reacts to emotions. The volunteers’ DNA was swabbed and collected into a petri dish then put under a microscope for observation. At which time the volunteer was in a different room behind closed doors staring at a screen. They began playing images and clips at random for surprise and emotional varieties from one moment to the next. Images like war aftermath, injured or hurt humans, then to funny or comedic scene, then to something like puppies or about family and love.

Scientific Findings: The DNA strands in the separate room under the microscope were reacting and moving as if they were being affected by the images. The studies showed to an atomic clock that this reaction was instantaneous and without fail.
 
Part 2 of Study: The team moved the DNA sample over 350 miles away. To a different time zone and region of the country. The volunteers to provide samples had 0 information on what the experiment was for or the methods which were to be used.

They administered the same experiment of showing the images. While using the atomic clock and real time communication between scientists at both locations the findings were conclusive.

• The DNA in the petri dish responding simultaneously - to the excact millisecond recorded on an atomic clock. 

DNA strand Physically separated from the Body
Connected somehow through unseen web or energy.

Evidence of something far more connecting running through the spaces which we only can see as empty. Not even understanding what it is that could carry the emotion like to the degree of instantaneous response regardless of variables.
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From John 3:1 we see Jesus speaks of Rebirth and Seeing the Kingdom of God

1. You Must Be Reborn to See the Kingdom of God
John 3:1 Jesus and Nicodemus
…2He came to Jesus at night and said, “Rabbi, we know that You are a teacher who has come from God. For no one could perform the signs You are doing if God were not with him.” 3Jesus replied,“Truly, truly, I tell you, no one can see thekingdom of God unless he is born again.”4“How can a man be born when he is old?” Nicodemus asked. “Can he enter his mother’s womb a second time to be born?”…
 

2. Flesh birth & Spirit birth different
John 3:4 – 8
How can someone be born when they are old?” Nicodemus asked. “Surely they cannot enter a second time into their mother’s womb to be born!”

5Jesus answered, “Very truly I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit.*** 6Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spiritb gives birth to spirit. ***

7You should not be surprised at my saying, ‘You c must be born again.’ 8The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.” 

3. New Heart  -  New Spirit Ezekiel 36:26
I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; I will remove your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.
 
Thoughts:
Sounds like the process of the spiritual journey into one's own inner-discovery. Where if you are like myself, and most others I've met having experienced a spiritual awakening or rebirth - it is much like a death and rebirth. 

• Death of old self - ideas, beliefs, traumas of past
• Rebirth of your truest form - Spirit

God = Earth? 
I've come to find the reprieve being found in my appreciation and gratitude for Earth. All the beauty she holds, everything that we have to experience and take in. That was my kingdom!

I am literally cracking up at the chronological order and series of events that I've written about. From Day 1 I began writing and documenting. I hadn't wrote creatively or journaled even in over a decade. 
Such a great blessing to rekindle that passion which I loved as a child. Soon I would be playing guitar more and more. And drawing consistently. The arts are so important to MY spirit. 

From the seat of your own treacherous path lined with the battle of figuring out what your reality was to you. As you were raised knowing that something about your reality was different than those of the people around you. Confronted with lack of understanding from all sources which you looked to for guidance and safe keeping. The decision is rested upon your shoulders.