Focused on Happy - the rest just falls into place. I found my focus being scattered into desiring multiple things. Praying or manifesting towards multiple areas of goodness in life. Usually led me to more scattered and less sincere intention. 

Once I was sufficiently depressed enough. Mangled and at a loss for reasoning with my own existence and choices I make in life. The place at the depths of the thought, "What's the point of me being here?" 

Patsy another one of my clients has since day 1 told me, "I just want to walk." Yet her legs and arms were completely unable to hold her weight with any balance. She had been in a wheel chair for some time before starting to work with me. I had taken the fact that she can't stand up or kick her legs to much extent as confirmation for her verbal indication that she can't walk.

Yet everyday she would say, "I just want to walk." That's all she wanted. As I would re-affirm to her that no she said her dr.'s said they don't know whats wrong but she's losing control of her extremities. Which is what I was told. 

The Alzheimer's friend I am able to work with was one of the life changers for me. All had been life-changing, but it was up to me to be ready to receive it with open hearts. I was working out with him, I was would have him run through exercises for keeping a stable and mobile body. 

It was the first person I've worked with where each time I met him, I would have to re-introduce myself. Everytime I would show up and say we're going to exercise. He would respond with a dismissive laugh and say things like, "I exercise everyday, I've already been on my walk." "I am strong and in good shape, I don't need any help with that." or he would just simply stay in his recliner and cross his arms saying he's already been on a walk and now it's nap time. Which I learned quick was a big no that I wouldn't be able to cross with any chipper pep talking. 

The yogis got something going on right. I remember the first time I went to yoga and believing that I was not flexible at that point in my life, while the instructor at the front said - "Bring all your awareness to the point of the burn. Sit with it. Be one with it. Don't judge it." 

Holy fuck was that dude ever right. It's essentially what I have been doing with social and emotional pains. Having to be one with it. Having to sit with it and not label it. Allow the thoughts of what others would think drift away into the abyss. Realizing this whole time I had only made choices based on that choir of thoughts. Picturing friends, family, my parents - as i'm decision making in life. 

It's a horrible place to be as an individual trying to experience their damn experience. It was literal hell, and I didn't even realize there was a way out. For I didn't know I was in it. I had the key. It was to literally do every damn thing my fear choir was telling me not to do. Anything I would think about doing, that was then followed by a worry of what they will think or what the outcome may be...a failure? Fuck yeah, the failure is in stopping there. 

I have a client I've been working with for years now. He has parkinsons. I had been so disengaged until recently but now all the pieces are coming together. I see how I can help all these people I've had in front of me this whole time - and how I can learn myself how to evolve efficiently. The fountain of youth for humans. Not sure if it's something even desired for what is the point of the experience if there isn't a beginning and end. But either way this will help a lot of people fighting to just exist and live - in a world which they feeling separate from. Or they feel they are missing something. Or they simply live in fear, do all the mandatory things which are demanded of them to exist. If only everyone knew there was literally not a damn thing you need to do. Nothing. It's kind of silly once you realize it. But dude, if you're doing something that's not making you happy and content. If you feel like there's some fulfillment missing - or your soul's purpose is what? - Then fucking go do what you want. It's liberating.

Time works for you when you sit at the other side of it. I had a schedule before. I lived by it. Now I don't even look at it, different times and places all week - but as I let down my needing and wanting to control - I learned there is an internal schedule which works in all of us.

I was stressed about work. Oh shit, I'm in debt. Oh shit, I have like 50% less money coming in then I used to. Well I was sufficiently broken enough into blind faith, very very blind faith. But it's freeing. Because as I don't worry anymore. As I am ONLY doing the things I want to do. And put my focus on what would be fulfilling to me -- and not the almighty dollar - the Lottery was won. All new work comes in that I had only prevented by seeking and reaching. For if I had sat in what I had with Trust - then the floods come in. 

Back to the guy i'm working with who has "parkinson's" - which I think the labeling of these symptoms is some of the worst shit we can be doing to ourselves. But regardless the topic I speak on is fear. As I had worked with my client who I will now just refer to as Doug. More of a friend and teacher to me as I see it now. As they all are in our lives. 

Before any exercise Doug would do, he would begin wincing and saying "Oh god. Oh god. Oh god." And then he would go forward with the motion of the exercise. I finally asked, Doug why you saying Oh god. Oh God? 

Doug - I'm scared.
Me- What are you scared of Doug?
Doug - Falling...
Me - Well you aren't moving yet. You're actually sitting. And I'm right here.

It dawned on me that this can translate to everything in life. That fear of taking the first step into something new or scary. Something that we don't know the outcome, and it could end in us falling straight onto our face. Often the fear wins and will keep us from taking that first step. The fear of falling is significant, as it must be understood there is no falling backwards. Only forward, often times it just takes our mind and understanding to catch up.

I put Doug on the table for stretch therapy healing that I provide. This day I put my hands on his ankles as I start with all sessions. And I felt his legs as concrete slabs along with an image in my minds eye. I knew then, he was severely disconnected from Earth. From his own body. He hasn't been down to his feet in who knows how long. 

Doug was a very successful man. Worked very hard his whole life. Accomplished a lot of amazing things, traveled the world selling his business invention with the US Gov't, and by all accounts was healthy with happiness in his every day life. 

I've come to understand, thanks to Doug and others I have the pleasure of working with, that it is all about connection and focus. 

Doug for instance had focused on many things in life. Accomplishing much of what he set out to achieve. I can't speak for him, but I'll take a guess that he was like many of us. Focused on being financially stable, on completing a course, on the career which we desire, or even focusing on retirement off in the distance while working tirelessly in the present moment. Never actually being present. 

I think we will find in studies which I am about to start documenting my own findings as the connection between these diseases we see of disconnect from the body. As not being associated with health or any other lifestyle choice - but rather from not being provided the simple ability of being in the moment and present.

If your work brings this for you..Holy fuck, it's unbelievable. Like cooks, hair dressers, game wardens, golfers, and park rangers - it is a blessing. The one thing that I am firmly believing as necessary in the connection being the feet on the Earth. 

Not on the concrete, not on the floor of the house, but the feet on the grass, dirt, or sand - or even in the water. It's important to bring the focus of the mind down to the feet and the feelings of them touching the Earth. Just being and feeling, with attention at the point of connection. For it's a conscious awareness we are talking about, not a changing physical law. You are apart of the Earth. Like a living organism the earth is breathing, evolving, it's living. And humans, like the animals and plants are cells working together as a part of the whole. 

The cell does not need to go around saying it's a cell. It does not have to declare I am a cell of the Earth. In fact it doesn't even have to realize it is a cell in the first place. But it doesn't make a difference that it's a part of the whole. 

And that's what we are seeing today. With the elderly and all these symptoms being labeled by medical community or pharmaceutical salesmen anyway, as being just a fact of the human body. Fact of life. You could possibly get to age 70, 80, or heck 90's - but there's a chance you'll forget who you are, along with everyone else in your life. At which point you're going to be spoon fed in a facility while regimen of medicine to sedate you will be given. HA! Dude, what the fuck is that. 

Yeah sure, people go crazy. Yeah sure, people eat foods that are processed by who knows what really. But the truth is, why would this loss of body connection be the common symptoms in many of these labels we've latched on. Why? Think from age 3, 4 or whatever we are put into a system of learning and socializing, which I mean is cool and shit for baby sitting and learning. But at age 13 or 14, this idea and sense of NEEDING to be someone, or to get ready for some sort of career or lifelong path to take.

At age 18 you better have the decision made on what the fuck it is you want to do for this life. What's my choices guys? Okay well Business is probably the best bet. Everything takes business, even the zoo with all the animals you'd love to take care of or the musicians store where you'd really prefer to teach others music. Business is safe, sounds like money. Sounds like success. Success to who? 

What else? Well political science...there's economics. How about biology? Maybe chemistry? Oh anthropology! I like that one, that was interesting at least. I really enjoy learning about human's becoming who they are today. What can I do with that? 

Well if you look here you can make low income annual salaries...So you'll be eating ramen and possibly shitting outside in the sand dunes of an ancient ruins site. Or....You can teach! You can teach it to others. But don't forget teachers have the highest percentage risk of this thing we call alzheimers. SO again...you'll probably forget who you are at some point.

Well fuck..That's because we have created a system to not even know who the fuck you are by the time you are making life decisions. Based on your understanding of who you are as a person who is raised by their parents, living at home with their parents, and going to a school that is not catered to their desires or areas of interest. So here ya go fuck face forget who you want to be, here's the choices we got. And a system which solely will focus your rating of how successful you'll be, by the amount of dollars you will make in a year. 

Holy shit, how fucked is that? Success in life. Engrained into the psyche as a price tag that you can attach dollar signs and numbers to. Hell to the no. I'll tell you, everyone is losing their god damn minds right now because of this exact shit. Not doing what they want to do. Never having known what they want to do. And not being able to be present enough to sit on the ground of Earth and realize THIS IS ALL I NEED. 

Everything else can fall to the waist side. It's an illusion for the focus of our beautifully abundant spirit to become blocked and the consciousness which enables this to be fully capable of what it is that it can do.

I threw my shit to the wind, and went on a Peru trip - which was confused for a bad decision at one point. But it was a taste. Just a fucking taste. 

The taste of freedom. What true freedom is. To me anyway. To my spirit. All I'm here to do is walk and talk. Walking and talking. It's the medicine. Oh and write. Writing down some talking is important for me to.

Walking on earth. Being barefoot in the grass, on the sand at the beach, in the dirt on empty lot next to your house. Just go do it. Get dirty. Lay face down on her. Lay on your back and look up at the stars or the clouds. I'll tell you that scorpion has something to it. Maybe you'll see it. Maybe you won't. But light is not what it seems, and you are not confined to a damn thing.

There is freedom within the chaos too. Which is why I'm here. Balanced as fuck now, finally. Letting that spirit flow the past few days, allowing some healing and messages to be sent. From ancestors to family members, to me, from me to my parents, and from all to me. The messages were of communication and doing what you want.

We must not avoid communication with our loved ones. With those who have hurt us. Do not avoid the discomfort of taking time to hearing someone's side and allowing it to be with acceptance-in the name of compassion and forgiveness. Unconditional Love is what is passed to us. From the one's who came before. Yet the consciousness is blocked by two things - fear and beliefs.

Do not fear the uncomfortable. And do not believe what you are fed. If you don't buy into it. Then throw that shit to the wind. The wind will take it for you. Then that flame will have a little more room to dance and breath. 

As societies do, the music binds them and they like to dance to the rhythm of sounds. Listen to the words of your music, what is it binding you to? What sounds good about it? What are the lyrics about? Shit I'll still bump drake every now and then. But I can't take that shit going into my head much anymore. I prefer some positive peaceful shit. Like Trevor Hall, O.A.R., Matisyahu, or some fun oldies- just jammed the lion king's theme track with my buddy and it was a blast.

Communication from your heart will come in the form of discomfort often. As confusion to who or what we are doing here can be felt throughout. The idea that will pop into your head as something you'd like to do.. then immediately shut out by doubts.
- How are you supposed to make a living off doing that
-You can't just travel and take vacations.
-Writing your songs or poetry and making music wouldn't contribute to your life.
-Drawing again or taking up a new art hobby would be silly as a 30 year old MAN. 

It's all the same..just a test of your desire. Do you really want to feel that spirit dancing in you? Freely and able to do what it is that you fucking want. What you came here for. That you knew your whole life, but don't want to admit the surrender in the never ending chase.

What you chasing? For who are you chasing it? Are you chasing it in ways that bring happiness or fulfillment? Because if sitting for a second with quieting all thoughts and to-do's. No past or present, no chatter of the mind. Just you in the center. What's that feeling? 

Doug taught me so much that day. He showed me that the fear which has been passed down unintentionally throw all channels of upbringing-has now run it's course in human consciousness. It is no longer a desired experience to understand the separation from expressing fully. As a child. You knew when you were a child. But it's just too loud maybe from the years in between. 

Get in front of a child, ask them what makes them happy. Ask them what they want to do with their life. Heck, be willing to accept they may know more than you think you know - ask them what they think you should do in life. 

Get in front of some elders and ask them advice or tips they'd give on living life.

Shut your mind up 100% and allow the answers to come. A message for you, from a savior that had been right in front of us this whole time. Yet we are too fixed on controlling and judging what is right or wrong, whats normal, what's strange, what's our response going to be, etc......

​When all that chatter's gone and you can receive 100% unconditionally. The answers are crystal clear. 

Live that life. Thanks to Doug for being my teacher. Thanks to all the people I get to work with on a daily basis with these "irreversible" symptoms. Because we will be changing the future given the hard work and focus they show each day. The mind needs no medicine, it produces the best medicine! Like the yoga philosophy I spoke about at the beginning - We bring our awareness back to the body and just be with it. Feel it. Be with it. It's not even real half the time, but more our fears and beliefs around it. 

 tThis is my life. I am able to choose the best step for me which is indicated by my desires fully in the moment. The greatest gift of all was the ability to be in the moment engaged in a conversation with someone. They are a mirror for that is the way to speed up the process of being one with the ways of life. As you can pass through each FEELING, which yes are important. But no are not to be run from. You are able to stand firm in what it is you are. What it is you are doing.

Between the sun and the moon, comes a grounding balance to be able to align to. You my friend have unlocked the understanding which is now your truth. The constellations behind the earth are the ones which you correlate with. The alignments happening behind the earth are the ones you are connecting to. It is what you feel. The light as you see light. Shines through cascading all things forth into your peripheril but the main focus is within. For the scorpion glows at night. As do you. The scorpion getting hit with a different UV ray, is now fulling glowing and shining in the dark. As does your soul. The soul is shows the light as it comes through, which you are able to take in as reality. Accompanied by the physical sensations which have kept you in fear of pain for so long until now - are also just the light shining and energies creating responses in your mind's perception.

All acceptance of your vantage point being a mirror - that all things you see, all people and conversations you have are actually exactly what is needed at that time. So pick up the phone. Say yes. Do what comes into your life. For that is just how you set up your stages of growth. The evolution of what is called the "spiritual awakening" is in fact a rebirth as described in such teachings presently followed. The resurrection being that death is not final. You cannot die when you have not been born. You are constant. As constant as the wind. No matter how settle it blows, or still it seems. It is a constant force. That is best tapped into in the physical by just being. 

For The Moon Arises to the Sun. Which gives the life to the Earth? Is it the Moon or is it the Sun. The credit is given to the Sun, although the balance is fair. The lights that would be on the other side of the earth - cascading through making up the soul's story on the other side of the earth. This can be helpful, this is not final. All stories have the varieties of timelines. All perspectives bring the best of outcomes - you my friend are the best of outcomes. The kaleidoscope is within, the kaleidoscope is outside, the kaleidoscope is you. Enjoy the mirrors.

All wounds could be healed if the parents understand the child's inner knowingness. The child is able to allow the intuition and knowledge of what is necessary to come through during their learning stages of 2, 3, 4 and beyond. 

As the parent's felt pressure to raise a successfully productive person as seen by their eyes given their experiences. As it were passed to them. The torch continues down the line, as all who have touched it before did the very best they were supposed to. All seeds need time to grow, as is the collective consciousness roots firmly planted in the experiences of all to come before. 

If there was a before, possibly it is the ability to be in present moment centered in a moment that your understanding of death and birth become rewritten given the rebirth to who it was truly behind you. The shadow is not the enemy but the experiences of your specifically sought after life. It is the fear and human condition to avoid the hot flame or the bee sting which has produced a sense of difficulty in this peeling back of layers. Do not get me wrong the process is no effortless feat. But once through stages of shedding to come, the spirit understands the true nature of it's vantage point in consciousness. 

There is no greater sense of accomplishment as the one which you have embarked. Many to come will continue with the 'diseases' and the limiting beliefs which they are fed. As it is reinforced by the continued symptoms felt in the physical. All just simply a sign of the times to come, yet these symptoms which have no been labeled by the current medical understanding will allow for missing of the nail each time the prescribed remedy is swung by the hammer of those who have learned to cover up. Rather than to be with, understand, allow, and be one with. 

Bringing your focus to the area you feel pain - again, shows great release of these ideas which have held you to an idea of 'pain' being bad. For the one who is ready what their physical condition was yesterday is soon able to be stretched into new ranges with the use of mind going straight in for the pain. Some will not be able to for the barriers of a society taught so. Which is their experience and your choice is always to respect the experience of others. Despite your own perceptions on what is the easier way, or what you can do to help. Allow for the flow to come to you, for when reaching is completely absent - then abundance and all that is needed is felt.

Which has been there since right this moment, but the thought to need and reach pushes it further and further away. As you strive harder to achieve and reach new levels of 'success' you will be stacking a stone wall for you to climb back over. But climb you will. The climbing can be done now. The phone can be answered when ringing. The conversation can be sparked when presented. The perspective can be expressed in anyway one chooses.

Do not fear the latter for the sensation is of a remnant timeline which is dieing quite quickly now, that it sensed in everything you see. Everyone around you. Staying centered at this time and not to let the mind wonder or try to figure anything out is optimum. Fighting the discomfort with your own inability to face the facts of your complete control in suffering this whole life. For the only discomfort felt is that of which you do not want to look at. For you lie outwardly or run away from something perceived to be asked of you - and in fact you're actually running from your ownself. 

No one can see you for the child is just dancing around in the shadows of your need to be a hero. The hero from which the child began to look up to, becomes the greatest obstacle to his own self sufficiency. Do you buy what you experience? Does it feel right? Who is to say what anyone sees is the reality? The two sides to a perceived interaction between vantage points are always of two completely different motion pictures. 

Being the actor you've been this lifetime, as has everyone. It's the main stage which you draw towards. Is it the right idea or the wrong? Is it the musician or the teacher? What is right or wrong - for their is the continuation of this loop which shall need removal for your own good. For walking in the moment and engaging what comes into your view fully and whole-heartedly; that is the way out. 

Way out which has been sought by all humans to live. For the drug addicts chase the same thing the CEO business executives who are living 'luxury' lifestyles. Where the same perception can be felt often at the end of the night. It is the lack of engagement in the moment and making choices based on what you desire and want. 

Like a child the emotions come. The emotions go. It is not in their understanding to hold it back. Or to hide it. It comes, it releases, it recycles. That is the physical expression of a cause and effect feeling in the human experience. Quite necessarily experienced by all to be raised into good and bad belief systems. To be told to focus on what the parents think needs to be focused on. But the truth of the matter is that there is a new child which will shed the layers as it is raised, while the parents sit in stern union to construct the reality of the boys and girls to be just like that which they live in. It will become apparent the spirit of the child bounces off these ideas and even plays with the parents on agreeing to them.  

The children which come now are suited and able to not attach to these strings of past experiences. Watching them will be of the upmost importance for many adults as a way to look towards what they are missing in their life. Their life which started just as the child's with all the dreams and fun focused action - to where they may stand at whatever adult point in their experience looking at what they were doing in their life.

Foundations are built upon soil which can be toiled, dug, and prodded. Yet there is sturdiness enough to hold the weight of all that walks it. All the buildings built upon it All plants, animals, and trees sharing it. 

There in the loose dirt is the foundation which is needed for the soul's true foundation. The soul, the spirit of earth is one in the same. It is the experience of all you see and who you meet in your life. Turn off the TV. Put down the Phones. Pick up the books and understand the dirt is where you are born. Not where you die. The dirt is the life blood given to the spirit for waking into itself in that perspective which is being held.

I thank you for allowing me caravan to see. Always greatly produced and surrounded. The vantage point of spirit takes the forms of musicians, artists, and writers alike. All from which allow blank spots in their memories recalling, or the planning for the future. That is where we get our chance to speak and send messages to and from all realities and times. 

The window being wide open as in the ways which the spiritual journey inward can take is the best yet. A clear open channel for flowing of thoughts without planning and without judgement. It's taken much time but that feeling so worth it. And the knowing of being a part of something far bigger than ever imagined. The size of what you've experienced so far not exactly giving fair perspective to the abilities held. 

One's choir as you say of replications of experiences past are simply telling you exactly where you should be focused to unhinge a pattern. The doubt felt before doing something, or in the thought of taking that action is the indicator of where to turn. You my friend have unlocked the secret to intuition. For intuition is not the same feeling for all. As in many others though, your ideas of what doubt has been is actually intuition knocking at the door.

Chasing that away for a lifetime will do wonders when unlocked. Unlocking a stillness and sureness of every step taken to being the right one. For behind confidence and doubt are the same things - truth. Your right thought. The first one which comes up and without completing it you allow it to be shut down. Fear fed again. Fear is one thing not able to produce movement forward in the conscious evolution of spirit.

Spirit and aliens. Let's talk about it. You my friend are of both. As are most people. But a fairly different variety and all returning to the same oneness it left. Yet many choose experiences of Angelic beings you've since labeled, which is a better understanding of the E.T./Alien's part in all of this. ALL is Good. All is Fair. There is no Evil, but only beliefs. Which as you've seen can produce quite the frightening experience. 

Yet, it does not exist in the law of what is true to be - for that is kept in category of visual experience tied to feeling and thought process of labeling one thing good or bad. Which is against the law in the first place. No things are good or bad. All are what you make of it.

ET experiences are what the vantage point has made of it. Was it scary? Fuck yeah it's scary, it was an unfamiliar being working on my genitalia. I don't know shit what they're doing. This creates a block for the telepathic communication and understanding  of oneness which allows for the truth of their caring for you since birth and day one.

A being which looks frightening to you. Why? What is it doing? The need to control one's feelings of excitement in order to simply allow for understanding to take place. No jumping for joy, no screaming and running. Both will disturb the connection, the fear being a far more strong pulse than other emotions felt often - it will tap into your creation abilities. Thus creating the experience of which you fear. And this is continued until dealt with and understood that what you see is a mirror and your openess is only way to learn.

No ET beings are bad. No experiences are bad. Nothing is anything other than AS IT SHOULD BE. You sir, can just be accepting of it. And there you have the next step. If so chosen of course. For you can stay at any stage you'd like to for as long as you'd like. The proper nudge is given when necessary. And for you that will be easier than the last ones. 

The openeness to all opportunities as they arise is another gift to be unlocked. As the phone rings with someone which you think you don't want to talk to - there is an opportunity. Practice and exercise your abilities to be in acceptance of all things which come your way. No phone call, no mail, no word or altercation and interaction is an accident. It's up to us to choose what we make of it.

Stop looking at the people who haven't called you back or responded to your texts, emails, or attention. Start focusing 100% of your attention on those that do call you. That do present themselves into your life. Leave aside your judgements on them, who they are as a person, or what type of interaction you expect. For the ones which bring your judgement will release you FROM judgement. If you stay open and see the message within being engaged in the conversation.

Tethering you to the past is your judgements of what you perceived as unenjoyable or disagreeable memories. Then once avoidance begins in your nature, it allows for void to be filled with fear rather than truth and strength. Facing of all life's problems are ways out of all life's problems. To take them on and be one with them are the ways to set yourself free from them. Snowballing into your present moment. When it can be a thing of the past, a blink of the eye, as all experiences are. 

The only real thing being this moment and your focus bringing what you're attached to it. For all fears attach themselves to the actions taken and feelings produced. The thoughts are a repetitive wheel which that action is brought into light then lies the beast which is feared. The drink of water goes to your lips with your actions of gripping the glass and feeling the water in the mouth and going down the throat. Attached to thoughts of drinking water which will nourish my body and cells (or simply just "this is me drinking water"). This can be done with all things. For you my friend have done with water and the things with which you have / had guilt. For those two actions may be different - with the same thoughts, and emotions - the same effect is produced energetically and in perception.

One says I am doing a drug and this is bad for me. This will kill me. This is a bad unhealthy habit and my body is suffering. I hope no one finds out and no one judges me. Shame and guilt being the ultimate carrier of the body's response. Consciousness through your perception is what you see in the mirror. And all those who look into the same mirror with you will report they see what you see. But just know that they are seeing something entirely specific to their own reality and needed timeline, you hear and communicate what you need to for your timeline and perception. 

How is this done? That is the great wonder of consciousness. But your seed needs what it needs to grow, and your wife's seed needs what hers takes to grow. This is message from the beyond, you're almost there. As you have always been there. There you are. Oneness. Achieved. All are one at essence, but all perceptions required with certain goals and experiences to be held. 

All exist as you do and the earth. But all eyes are separate windows into the same things, with different color schemes and shapes. One window is green with blue and has a triangle shape, while the other is a square window with shaded dark glass. And some smaller than others. For they are exactly what they choose to experience and open to that which is exchanged and shared with their own beliefs. 

I find that you are often times scared. Scared of people and letting go. This is okay for the grip of your attachments are like the rings on the tree. Showing your experience gained and knowledge understood. You my sir, have completed a lot of understanding for one life. As all do their amount desired. It's only the fear of the first step which holds one up, the rest is history. So again, answer the calls and requests. For it will set you free and keep you flowing toward the goal effortlessly. The goal of which you chose, and that being there is no goal for all but for some there are missions. Others there are teachings to give and some their reversal plays with the same cast as last.

When a window is closed that looks unbreakable and made of concrete. Those often are the windows most open. This is the land of backwards teachings and masterful learning. That which you think, can be left behind. That which you have labeled as bad, mental illness, or disease of age are actually the gateways to the purest flow of truth. 

When sitting in front a homeless person who is talking to himself. What is your first thoughts and reactions? Probably to judge what he is saying and turn away in fear. Well once engaged in the moment without judgement or motivation for your conversation - you will find your mirror in it's purest form. Be one with the great teachers of your time. The one's labeled and discarded. Fear has allowed for the pushing away out of fear of not being able to understand. 

This is no easy interaction, for the ability to fully engage and be one with the receiving end is about the ability to be absent of that which you have attached to your whole experience. This is what channels have been able to achieve to some extent. But the conversation one on one between two portals are of the upmost importance and care. Food for thought. Why eat? What is hunger? What's that feeling? How do you know? Is it bad? Why do you think die then? What proof of the food giving your body life? Or is it possible the Mind gives the perceptions of the body to reflection of own beliefs. Is it not true that hair loss and bandaides cover wounds. Yet what is changing in the view, the idea that what we see or are told is reality. For not knowledge of the tests which lay in each unwanted news and piece of advice being the same in itself. 

I hope this helps you. We did good. This rant is never a rant, but the best range of balancing mind and hands for the flow of never-ending spirit. The speaking flow can be managed with time, but excitement can be overwhelming and surges of all that has been waiting there is ready to get out. It is often opted the death of the physical body to be relinquished as the ability to keep a grasp can be quite hard. But trust in yourself. You are right there. Your balance requires this range of motions. You require nothing, yet your thinking is unlocking. Lock and Unlock, by own locks held. Let them go and just be. 

I relinquish judgements and doubts. For they do not serve me anymore

Just got off the phone with my parents and had the most amazing experience of removal from karmic ties. It's not something I had personally believed in, yet there it was. There is things written and then there is free will. Those who know of their purpose through experiences which show despite their best thinking - they will end up doing exactly what they are supposed. Right when they are supposed to.

I don't speak for others but I do know that when I realized everything I've done in life has been perfectly fitted into the evolution of me being right where I need to be. To hear exactly what I need to. And to say what it is that I am supposed to also hear myself.

Listen to the advice you give to your friends and family. Listen to the guidance you share to others in the times where you think you're just helping a friend. Be present in the moment in each conversation, completely listening to the words they are saying - taking it all in. And then allow your response to come without your thought of the right thing to say. There is where you align with yourself and all that has been waiting for you. 

Once fully engulfed in someone's words as the speak to you, allowing your engagement to be listener - not thinker, not judger, nothing but listening and acceptance. That there is the gift we've been given. You will see as you learn that you are looking in a mirror. The other person appears to be different by physical features, they think and act different than you. They even have different beliefs than you. Yet you realize the roles each of you play as being a reflection for your growth and best coaching or teaching you can find.

You can't pay for this service. You can't put a price tag on it. This is a service exchange of Love between two that are learning their way through the distracting surroundings of this world. The way back to oneness in a sense, if that is what you wish. For me, I hold here. Right now. Not trying to achieve any heightened area of life, or my thoughts, or knowledge. All I've ever had has always been with me since before time. And this experience is one of beauty, despite what you are being told.

Allowing your Guilt & Shame to shed - 
1- Most guilt and shame can be traced back to the needing of approval, acceptance, and love from our parents. Ultimately placing this external reaching for a source of love, a source of approval, a source of understanding and knowledge. What's right. What's wrong. 

The truth is nothing is right or wrong. Nothing is good or evil. All simply is. As it should be, has been, and will always be. Understand this for you in accepting the information you've been given about the world's atrocities can be forgiven or admittedly let go of as not being something you've witnessed or experienced - therefor not a part of your reality or concerns.

Everything has been moving forward despite our greatest effort to control or change things. Our labeling of experiences and feelings only putting burdens on our own happiness, yet all rolls on into motion as it should. Leaving some behind to worry about if there package is coming in the mail or if it may be stolen. As if the worrying has any effect on the actual turnout of the experience. Either way you choose to think about it or put weight unto it - the outcome will be the same. 

Letting go of this control which leads to worry will allow for all things to flow effortlessly. This control is simply coming from the attachment of our own time and worth onto that which we want to control. Let it go. Let all things happen and come to you just as they should. You shall just take the actions you desire and wish to. For you can do what it is you want to do. Despite your ideas of needs and normal living. 

Moms and Dads - They have sacrificed a lot for you. They had worked very hard to give you the best they could, whatever that looked like or felt like to you. All generations momentum is forward, and all do better than what they were given in some way. Not to say what was given to them was wrong. It was a natural experience which led to the evolution and understanding of you. The perspective which you hold. 

Although you think separately of your ancestors and the past. It is quite literally all very a part of you. Within you and a meaningful piece of this whole experience. Forgiveness of your own thinking is necessary. For no one else is to forgive - unconditional love is the way. They abuse, the pains, the wrong-doings we perceived from our past is now only keeping us bound to the suffering and burdens of our past thinking. 

This may not make sense to you, for that is not what is the point of reading it. The point being is that you are apart of a much bigger organism than the perspective from which you've held. You've looked to science for your answers and understanding. You've looked up to the skies and to the mountain tops for your focus of love worship and answers. A natural and necessary footing in the growth of all consciousness. 

For now the time has come for the true acceptance of your standings as the "God" which you've searched for. Or the one in power of your life. You have the control. You have all that is needed to create exactly which you want to experience. In the name of Love we see great movement in consciousness. But ultimately all possibilities play out to the same end. You choose yours. As I choose mine. For I am just you writing from a different window. 

No more mirrors on the wall. Those are windows into your own perspective. The mirror of what we really need to take note of is that from which we have separated. Earth, Humans. 

If the Earth is crashing around you, your friends are telling you things you don't want to hear or the discomfort of loss of friends. It is you sir that needs the focus. Not the others. Not the world. No saving is needed today, for your world is the only one which you captain.

I write from afar now, and I come through the canals of all rivers which flow into your own perspective. Often coming in the form your own thoughts. Or coming through the music which gives you the chills. The deja vu felt when standing in a new room. It is the part of you telling you something. Nudging your focus to take a moment to really experience that moment and feel what it means to you. 

Afar is the distance the eyes have given us to perceive as space in between. The truth is there is no distance, as I write this here. You read it with me. We wrote it together. Just not known until the time when both vantage points meet back in the center. 

The center which was never left, but the feelings and thoughts of the physical experience leading to a much anticipated separation feeling and longing. Longing for something. All do. In this experience anyway. Whether they identify it as longing, or filling this bottomless hole with illusions which present brief reprieve. 

Heroin should be the quickest route to understand this longing and searching. For a heroin user has been gifted the faster experience to reaching a place of no return where the chase will go on endlessly, or they become happy and accepting of where they are. 

Now they know the touch of that goodness. That immense pleasure which is a reason for complete focus of their being to fixated on that one feeling, and attaining it whatever that may take. This is a reality setting touch from stinger of which you all feel and all came from. 

"Bliss" - is a word that was made for the labeling of the feeling. Now despite everyone who has considered their feeling bliss actually felt the same thing. Those who have felt it, know exactly what it was. They know exactly what it means. They know exactly why they are here on earth right now. Why they have nothing to reach for. No single thing to search for attain. Other than being here in the present and engaging with our experience. 

For the feeling I felt was a sense of knowing everything there was to know. Yet too at peace and serene to look anywhere other than just being - Another golden ticket - just being. Sitting in it which lasted seconds as far as I could tell while driving. I came to from it and said Holy Shit, is that what we're all here chasing? Well yup, I'd say so - and we fixate it on our gaze which has been from this experience thus far. 

There is no parent you can turn to and let off the hook by your ideas of forgiveness or releasing from a fouled childhood. You will chase for reasons that go beyond you coming to on this planet. Which I can tell you is not right at birth. Children come as a species of biological perceptions we see as humans. But the consciousness which you sit with today is not the baby from the hospital. It is not even the teenager from your memories of youth. Your here now in present as you've never been before. As nothing has ever been before. Not a single time. Not a single experience. 

A brand new Life every second. A brand new physical experience for you to take in every single second. There is no yesterday that holds you down. There is no tomorrow to plan for. There is only now in this very moment as you sit reading and writing this. From yourself to yourself. That is the rebirth. Awareness within to know the power of creation relies upon the openess of the psyche. 

Once open the seed that has been planted firmly within the layers of memories and experiences held onto. Can finally grow. Where is this seed? It is not a seed which you label and relate. It is a seed which has no form. Takes no shape. Has no boundaries. No needs for ingredients or water to grow. All it needed was the opening of the wooden box it's been kept in this whole time. As you've searched. There it sat. As you've thought. There the answer was. As you ask yourself what am I doing here. Here it is. 

Unblock the ideas of your ability to change things in an instant. Unblock your beliefs on what is physical and what is law. Unblock what is wrong and what is right. Unblock your own blocks which you hold up. Allow the God of everyone to be seen. For the seed is a contagious one, which needs no thought or focus of your attention to grow in others and throughout. Just walk and talk. The seed grows, you grow, we grow. I who writes this and I who does not yet know it yet but about to achieve the step desired. 

That step being into Falling in Love with Yourself. As you have done the entire experience, but just seeing the forms of another person. All who's eyes you look into, know that yours stare back. Wanting and looking for the same thing you are. Maybe they don't know it. Maybe they do know it. Maybe you perceive your interaction not impactful or even going wrong - know that's an opportunity for your growth. The other reflection got exactly what was needed despite your ideas. 

I wrote this. You read this. Together we sing it. We act it out for all to see. The whole world will watch as the mirror of you is held up for their truth to see. And you can peer back into your own 'soul' in everyone and everything.  

The mirror is what holds the key to sharing and unlocking. The mirrors of "past" and "future" or the children and the elderly. This is where we are able to talk to our future. The best possible future is laid out in patterns of your guidance from others. The older generation telling you what to be grateful and doing more of. The children telling you the same, but with a dance of freedom which should be imitated by your own self. 

I will continue to do my daily work, while being content and engaged in each moment. Each word shared to me by the elders, I will understand that I am looking into the window showing me the future part of me peering back into me. The child showing me the playfulness and emotions which come and go. As they should during balancing. The breathing being adjusting and introductions of new consciousness and awareness they will hold.

The breathing, coughing, or shortness of breath is a good sign. Not a bad sign. As you had gone through the congestion and relief of the white energy. So shall the others. Some in their sleep without cough. Some during the waking - with cough. Sleepers are natural way for introduction to be made. But daylight coughers are important ones. Asthma, allergies, food poisons, animal stings allergies. Those are the important ones to look out for. They hold the codes for continuation of the planets chemical makeup.

The bees that sting with the same apparent amount of juice to one person as to another who all of a sudden can't breath or feels as if dieing. The latter meaning what exactly? That person has more of the venom than others who have 0. The scorpion stings the ones that glow at night. The scorpions sting being special as seeing between spectrums on many levels. The scorpion although looking fierce and mean, is the relaxed and content creature to be. Present in the moment, one with the ground. All vibrations felt through scorpions will be displayed by strange behaviors. 

The glow, the same as the moon. Carries no light until a modifier is introduced into the visual arena. Then the glow of the moons light is shown for the world to see. As you are, as the scorpion. No right or wrong. Dark is no different than light, only backwards from the thoughts held.

I could go on for days, but your feeding me too much ;) . I am here always for the displaying of our knowledge, but one must learn the best ways for calling. Two hands, creating without planning. A trickey thing to accomplish with the build up of memories and emotions. But for you my sir, we have gotten it. This has been a great moment. No to understand last weeks moments were nothing but a flicker in the flame which is no longer burning but the smoke traces from it to you. As do all things. 

The future in the mirrors of others. The past in the smoke behind you. You do not die. Because you do not live. For that responds in limitation. You my friend are limitless. Just as me who is writing this. I am you, you are me. Thanks for reading what you wrote. Very good stuff. And enjoy your burrito. It will be a good one. 

To say that any one person on this earth is able to walk through the narrow passages of childhood and teenage years without immense bundling of a multitude of false beliefs, Fears, and coupled with the choir of echoes from the past.

All humans are experiencing the Earth Human experience, and this is a stage of separation. Separation from that which makes you. Yet allowing you to fully understand and enjoy that which you have. 

Love is what you have. 'Euphoria' is the feeling which your essence vibrates at, through, and from. While here we are shown the beautiful walk back to this truth. Which gives the appreciation and allows it to even exist. If there were multiple feelings from which you came. Then why would you have to go anywhere other than where you're at to be apart of it. 

Well you don't. You have all things with you. As you are. Now. Here. In the moment. 

Which pains someone who has read those words from a point of confusion. As I know the phrase "Easier said then done." should always be tagged on those words of wisdom.

I hope all are able to come to the realization and acceptance that nothing they have done has ever been in wrongdoing. I don't know how it happened, but we have come to accept ourselves as living while suffering deeply in our hell. 

Criticizing thoughts through out the day of the ways we should have done something different, the better ideas you could have used, the messed up actions and behaviors we've exhibited.

We tend to be a foot ahead of ourselves at all times. Planning. Thinking. Analyzing.

Let it go. Stop figuring things out. Stop categorizing, Labeling, and defining that which you experience /do by the "good or bad" beliefs. That can be dropped. I found my breakthrough moment was when I stopped thinking of what I need to change or what I would like to be and switched to focus my wishes/manifestations/desires/affirmations on ONE thing.  I just want to be happy. 

No more manifesting money. No more manifesting career success. No more manifesting anything other simply being happy. And that's all I truly wanted in my heart. FINALLY.

Being stripped of the reliance upon those things was painfully scary, and brings with it great feelings of your sense of worth and self-love. So when lost. This attachment of who you are and what makes you, YOU is broken as you learn there is nothing to do but just be and take the next indicated step. 

I left my job. I left my company and all belongings to travel. And I knew it was the right thing to do. The only thing that made it difficult was the worrying of others disapproval for it. My parents mostly, but also friends who had shared their concerns with me. 

They did all this out of Love, as all things are done we eventually see. But it was for me to learn. It was for me to take the step on Faith and jump. It was for me to live the freedom without money worry, work schedule or needs, and not having anyone else's input on where to go. 

It was freedom. I felt free mostly with the letting go of my idea of money being needed in my future. I had faith, complete faith in that. And I still do. Although upon return and my public crash and burn of drinking heavy and substance abuse was surfacing for all to see.

For me to address and be with finally. Which realizing I only ever thought and worried of what others would think of this. Not really asking what I think of this. The truth was, I wanted to do it. I just wanted to do it because it made me feel good. 

So I started taking that stance, that I will do what I want which makes me feel good or makes me happy. That allowed the freedom necessary coupled with the only desire in being happy - for me to finally separate myself from this attachment of right and wrong. And doing, acting, or changing what I am or who I am for anyone else's perceptions or concerns.

It was so powerful. It was beautiful and really brought a great sense of confidence which was missing in myself. 

The drugs and alcohol - being the HUGE "wrong" in my life. The "bad" thing I could do. Was no longer Bad or Wrong. It just simply was because I wanted it happy. It being my needing beliefs of not being OKAY as I am in the present moment. 

An escape from the place of my own blessed gift to be standing and perceiving. Not knowing true happiness though came with a cost. As it should not be labeled to divide the idea that this feeling and emotion is better then the feeling of loss or fear. 

For all the same. All are the exact same thing. Same essence. Same truth. Same vibration. Same everything.

The only difference is the perception held and our beliefs around which we hold standards and labeling of good or bad.

It's the duality of it that allows the appreciation of it. It's the duality which allows the awareness. No way to think you've missed the shot or your time is lost on focus being one way when it should have been the other. That in itself is continuing the right and wrong.

There lies the toughness of the journey. It can be a vicious cycle and repeat until the person gives in to consensus beliefs around them. OR they get stuck and just lose the drive for forward motion in the present. 

It's a symptom we see when this happens in Body and Spirit - that we have come to label by different names "alzheimers" / "dementia". Although thinking they are an illness which is of random proportions that our mind can just do to us is a grave injustice. 

It's the Spirit's giving up the wheel and balancing act. It's a true mystery in our eyes, and painful on the loved ones left here to try and manage care and love. 

Learn to love the painful in life. Learn to love the scary. Learn to not accept the things that are not your own. Is your beliefs yours? Or is it your moms? Is the way you deal with emotions your own ways, or a design of others?

Who's running the show in your mind? Is it you or is it me? Who is here with you now? Where are you? You in your body right now, or you out somewhere else dreaming. 

Is there defined belief in the knowing of what you are. Who you are? Are you here. Or are you in front of yourself. Are you following in the back? Maybe besides yourself. 

Don't fucking dwell on it. Just be. Right there. Right now. Because here i Come. The One. The One with the body. The one with the Home. The One with the Earth and the Kingdom. To separate these while here is to miss the entire TRUTH of it all. Not a wrong, just a besides yourself. For as you read this, you have already typed it. Or maybe written it. Actually it could have been spoken. Or thought. 

It was you. It was not me. I was here with you. The whole time. And I think your thoughts are great pure. Do not tend to walk from them. You shall be amazed at the knowing intuition you have, Once empowered ...Or REpowered - one is amazed at what they sought was there.

Easier said then done. Don't be mad at yourself. Love yourself. Give yourself the attention you give to your outside world. To the girls. To the boys. To the money and the news. Point that shit back in. And boom! There's your answer and teacher. There's the messiah. There he is. Or she. Whichever you gravitate to. Thank you for playing the game and being a part of the awesome learning and group effort. We will be calling. 

. What others will think of this substance abuse, of my drinking. After years of sobriety and putting immense weight on the importance of sobriety. My feelings of love.